non one line update

I guess I should up date the blog and let you all know whats been going on with me and Reggie. Its been forever since I have even thought about blogging. Mainly due to the fact that its been really tough here for us lately. I am haveing a hard time believing that there is something for us in this world other than utter misery. But I've got to have faith and stick to the grind.

Reggie has found work with his father doing a horrible inventory job. I say horrible and I mean it. Honestly if he could find something else he'd be dropping it like that. His schedule is so off the rocker that I never know when I'm gonna see him for dinner or if I'm going to see him at all for several days. They do alot of Lowe's in the Carolina's. We are doing our best though. Even though its been tough not being able to always sit down and talk but I think that we've decided that we need to set aside time to do this. SO like we should have been doing before, the lack there of being that we were too lazy, we're going to be moving dinner from infront of the computers to sitting down at the kitchen....sorry DINING room table. I think I'm also gonna try and get him to go to the river walk with me once a week with our dog.

I still haven't found anything on the job front. I'm hoping that I can get on with one of the school districts around here as either a teacher's aide or a substitute teacher. My mother has also told me that she'd help out in trying to get me back into college to finish my associate's degree. I'm going to apply here at Macon State. I figure if I can get in and get student loans that will help us out until I can get my GACE Certification and I can "leagally" start teaching. It may only be pre-k but it would be in the career path that I've chosen.

I'd like to get reggie to consider moving to a new location and trying to start anew but I know that is not a possibility right now, finacially as well as the fact that both of us are close to our families and of course the pet problem. >.< It would be hard to find an apartment that would allow our whole family to live there. And I know it would be hard for me to sacrifice my babies but I think it would be harder on Reggie. He cringes at the thought everytime it gets brought up. But for right now they don't eat much and we can afford them. We charish all the love we recieve from them. I know I can only speak for myself on this but I know with out the love of my animals I really don't know how I'd have made it this far. I love my husband but he's not the best under stress, but neither am I.

On a side note, my mother in law gave us our christmas in july. She couldn't wait to give Reggie and his dad theirs. They both got a GPS system. Its nice. Its a Moterolla and it even says the name of the street not just Turn Right in 1 mile. Its nice :) I got my Vera Bradley I've been waning so badly. Its the Rasberry Fizz. Its small which is what I wanted. My old purse was so bulky. I loved it but it wasn't practical for everyday use. I kept knocking stuff over.

I'd post pictures but that will probably be Saturday evening. I have a really nice one that I LOVE but because reggie's teeth are showing and I know how he is about them I won't post it. I'll wait till he gets his hair trimmed and then I'll get a picture of the two of us. and post up an updated one with our short hair :)

Good night to you all!

no offense inteded

I just saw this quote and thought it was hilarious. it made me giggle.

Music is like candy. You should throw away the rappers.

Reggie's new hair cut :)

So I finally broke down tonight and emailed several Dentists about the tooth I broke about 2 years back. I've babied it but have still managed to get a sever cavity in the tooth. I just feel so worthless for asking for charity from anyone like that. Well I guess it really isn't' charity. I offered to work in the office as payment. I'd try a payment plan if we could afford it but with both of us still out of work that's nearly impossible. I don't even know how we've managed to pull through the last few months. We wouldn't' be married right now if my mother hadn't stepped in and helped us out in the end. I'd just deal with it until we found something but the pain has gotten to the point where it hurts to swallow. I may just end up having it pulled. It will look funny since its my left bottom canine but I can manage looking silly just as long as the pain stops.

I keep getting discouraged. Every time we think we'll pull out on top something gets pulled out from under us. I feel as though I'm cursed. We finally got out of the nasty apartments and into a nice house only to have Reggie lose his job. I got the job of my dreams and just when I was starting to enjoy it and get good at it, it ends. And now every time we think that something just might go our way, everything goes to hell in a hand basket. I don't' know what to do really. I'd ask for help from the church but I'd feel horrible since I haven't been in so long. I need to start going again. I know I do but its so hard when you know that you need to save every last drop of gas for Reggie in case he gets that interveiw or incase I get called for a babysitting job or interview and the church is so far away. I really just feel like I've been abandoned. I know he's suposed to challenge us here on earth but at one point isn't it suposed to get better? Aren't you suposed to earn some time when the challenges aren't so burdoning? I'm at my wits end. I'm crying again when I should be happy that I'm with the most wonderful man god could allow me to have. And just when I think that blessing will pull me through something else goes wrong. I'd like to say atleast it can't get worse but I know it can. I had a control on my depression and ever since I lost my job in october I keep slipping further and further and I find it harder to bring myself back up. I feel so lost.

I apologize for putting this out there for all of you to read but I needed to get this off my chest.

March 20-21, 2009

A picture of our rings taken by my father in law.

A picture of us with our mothers. Joyce, Reggie, Me and Teresa

A picture of us. Now how did we manage to both close our eyes LOL

One of my favorite pictures of us.

 

4DAYS!!!!!!!